hav a sudden urge to blog after coming back from movies with jac n benny. it was supposed to be me n benny but jac chap-ji-ka (had her leg in our outing) cos her frens PANG SEH her eh. i'm good right, jac? where to find such frens? haha. joking =P

we caught Kungfu Hustle. was not up to my expectations but shall not spoil it by revealing the plot to ppl who are still very keen on catching it.

and National Treasure wasn't up to my expectations too. it was a little cliche. boo.

alright to my original motive. the following lines were picked up this year from sources. heh. n i thot they were quite original:

insulting line of the year: (specially dedicated to flamers who have been flaming comments in my blog. you know who you are.)

- "you can't even be a vegetable cos even artichoke has a heart."

lame line of the year:

- "suddenly the air is so fresh. cos u've just taken me for a ride."

christmas' jus round the corner and i'm HORRIBLY BROKE. DAMN IT.

baking cookies with jac n yan tmr and i'm contemplating a swim in the morning. know what it means? time to sleep. till then, have a great day!

mood: confused. dunno why.

i have seven ear-holes. not alot, but still pretty much. excluding the two ear-holes which i had when i was still a pre-schooler, the other five has its story. and i'm writing about this cos most of the ppl had been assuming i got them cos i was some kind of ar-lian.

let me first give u a brief introduction about the guy whom most of my earholes were pierced for. his name is jared fang - my ex. i got to know him when i was 16, and yes i admit i was kind of a delinquent who likes hanging around games arcade and yet was still rational enough to know that studies cannot be neglected. and games arcade was the place i got to know him.

he was two years older than me and was studying in a private school, taking o' levels the same year as i did cos he had just finished serving his term in boys' home.

he was attractive.

our relationship was hell of an unhealthy one which would head for doom inevitably, but i was too blind to see a thing. talking about stupidity, i would be the perfect personification for it.

i was constantly upset in the relationship, and i guess so are all my friends and family. i was everything but myself.

perhaps it was cos of the guilt i felt when i let sean (my previous bf before jared) down, i told myself i was going to make my next relationship work no matter what. hence my persistence in the relationship. physical pain was just a means to numb the pain i felt in my heart.

earhole 1 : he wouldn't take my call nor reply my message for 2 weeks. and i hadn't seen him for a month. i didn't noe what had happened or what did i do wrong.

earhole 2 : the big blow. he requested for a break-up after i called him to tell him i bought a present for him. i wanted him to have the present so badly that after the break up i went to his house, left it outside his door n silently wished him happiness.

we patched back a week after.

and in between this one week he got attached to two other girls.

earhole 3 : in a heated argument, he threatened me chairs can fly. and he does hav the guts to set fire to houses.

earhole 4 : shouted at me after i asked how he's feeling. left me stranded on the streets, crying. came back to fetch me a while after, but tht nite i asked him if it's that he would be happy only if i listened to everything he says. he gave me an answer i don't wanna hear.

we broke up eight months later. not cos i wanted to give up, but cos he couldn't see the point of continuing anymore.

earhole 5 : this guy i met in jc left me emotionally unstable n hurt cos he couldn't make up his mind about what he wants. i wanted it to serve as reminder that i'll not be making such silly mistakes again.

this is, but a part of the story of my life. i never looked back, cos it made me what i am today.

i woke up feeling like my head weighed a tonne. damn it, i know i'm going to fall sick again. again.

what a friday. but the only consolation is that i'm going to meet benny for dinner later! ya-ay! he's back from u.s, but not for good tho. i always enjoy an intelligent outing with him. haha. yeah he's so smart u wouldn't believe it. smart but not nerdy.

anyway, today discovery channel caught my attention (like always. i would choose discovery channel, national geographic n channel newsasia over soppy drama serials anytime.) they were showing a documentary where historians were trying to use modern technology to trace back the cause of Alexander the Great's death. and for your info, he died 2300 yrs ago. isn't it amazing?

n i totally enjoyed the journey back in time. they discovered that Alexander the G died of a slow poisoning process. physicians used small amounts of poison in the past as medicine to counteract illness, but in the case of Alexander G., he had a dose too many. which was quite a pity cos he was only 32.

and i think he has a slight inclination towards his own gender. opps.

alright, enough of gossip. back to me. I JUST COMPLETED READING DAN BROWN'S -THE DA VINCI CODE- and i think it's a thoroughly engaging and interesting read that once you started on it, it's hard to put it down. i don't wanna comment on the controversial issues he discussed inside the book, but i wanna applaud him for his writing style that totally captures the reader n the wide usage of facts to form a plot. cheers to good books. =)

oh and i went clubbing at chinablack again last wed. chanced upon pei rong n valerie there. n valerie, u're SO tall *envy* haha. i think i'm getting a little sick of clubbing. perhaps will stop clubbing for the rest of december.

okie, now for the informative part of the blog: (taken from a health mag)

The Seven Healthy Sins you should consume

[1] Avocado
replace mayo with slices of avocado in your sandwich. you'll save calories and boost Vit E stores.

[2] Caviar
for protein.

[3] Chocolate *gasps. heavenly~ haha!*
at least once a week, enjoy an ounce of chocolate for its disease-fighting antioxidants. Dark chocolate has more antioxidants than milk choc, tho.

[4] Lobster
for calcium, zinc and vit B

[5] Milkshake
When watching ur weight, reward yourseld with a calcium rich banana milkshake which will actually help burn fat.

[6] Shrimp
for protein.

[7] Wine
no need to wait until the weekend to imbibe. Toast ur heart health with a daily glass of wine - red provides the most health benefit.

isn't it cool that we should hav chocolates n milkshake like once a week? and wine/whine everyday? muaahahAHha.

n for those who dunno, do you know that p.s that we always use at the end of a letter/email actually means post script? mystery solved!

okie last line yeah, i think it's so cool to have an initial (especially a G.) behind a name like in the case of Ali G., Alexander the G. n my fren Samuel G. i want one too! haha.

alright, hav a good weekend =)

oh gosh, i am STILL very haunted by what i did tt nite when i was on an alcohol overdose. i seriously dunno how i'm going to face that person anymore. damn. please dun ask me what is it, i'm too embarrassed to say. n for those who noe, pls keep ur mouth shut. haha. i'm seriously dying from embarrassment. think i'm gonna hide from him for a year. hahahaha.

and i felt a little pricked when i saw what one wrote about it... roomie, u shud noe who is this girl. damn, i meant it when i say i really wasn't conscious of what i did. shit. this is the ONE big thing i really regret for this year. NO more alcohol intoxicification for me. saves me my dignity n my belly. urrgh. shiate.

talking about alcohol overdose. here is another reason why u shouldn't drink OVER your limit - ur feelings intensify.

i was happily sleeping yesterday nite. please also note that my sleeping hours had been HIGHLY irregular and i can only slp when the clock ticks four a.m. and there at 6.35 am, one highly drunk young man decides he shall create havoc by fighti ng n shouting on the top of his lungs OUTSIDE MY CORRIDOR. my bedroom's jus next to the corridor. the whole hoo-hah went on for about half an hr or more and i guess all my neighbours were jus too scared to go out n confront him n his frens who were trying to tame him. n he started smashing&nbs p;my mum's flower pots. n threatening to jump down. wtf.

n the police came.  

alright. peace came n i fell aslp all over again.

today looks fine enough for kayaking, you noe? *looks at zhiying cheekily* haha. but swimming will do fine too. tt's what i'm gonna do. swim to the bottom with jac. hahahaha.

and i've jus completed two seasons of Sex and the City. i'm sorry, roomie. i was jus SO hooked on it that i spent the rest of yesterday watching it. and i didn't leave hall till late. hahaha.

oh man, it's good. it's not exactly about sex, but somehow it made me reflect on women surviving in this fast paced society. damn. i was in fact quite affected.

anyway talking about corridor, when i was in primary one, when i first heard of the word corridor, i used to keep asking my english teacher where is the 'door' in corridor. hahahaha. well, my teacher gave up explaining to me. hahahah.

ah, i'm still SO very affected about my alcohol overdose behaviour towards him. i hope i won't ever get to see his frens. i may just suffer burns from embarrassment. shiate. help me!

sometimes when u feel that life is going at its best, something's gonna go downhill. being happy, isn't always. n everything seems like in a twirl, u're jus standing there in the middle wondering why is the world spinning so fast.

so fast.

i wonder what did i do to make u feel this way. my world jus crashed. cos u matter to me.

was working today and i came across this road name:

happy avenue central.

it exists! n it's in SINGAPORE. yes, ur DEAR SINGAPORE. oh my god! such a magical name. i wanna live there.

imagine ppl who are staying in happy avenue central are always happy. not a drop of sadness. not one tinge of frustration. not a hint of contempt.

i wonder how it would be like, to be living there.

where ppl are always happy.

truly happy or faking smiles?

went clubbing at chinablack yest. it's like always, but definitely not as packed as phuture.

i think 10 yrs been shaved off my lifespan, judging from the amt of alcohol i intoxicate myself with every freakin' week. yeesh.

been worrying abt the belly tt's ever expanding. but what-the-heck, there's always tomorrow right? *grins*

and learnt a lesson yesterday : never underestimate the power of alcohol. you may just commit something (when still unconscious) tt may change EVERYTHING. n i mean EVERYTHING.

been thinking alot abt this:

what do u measure a successful life with?

the number of checks u have on ur successful-life-list by a certain age?

or how happy u are at tt point in time?

i don't aim to have the best in life, i don't even aim to have the best of everything of tt seemingly perfect life,

but i aim to be the best tt i can be.

n being happy is part of it.

today i wanna drop a bomb shell to blow away all those freaking kiasu-kiasi singaporeans. FREAKING KIASU.

they would happily kill/murder/rape for one piece of CHEAP FREE GIFT. what the fuck?

i'm totally amazed/amused/bewildered/ ashamed at what these freaking kiasus can do to get a freaking free glass.

[1] re-enter the entrance, rubbing away the stamps on the hand, and act as tho they jus entered. for 5 times.

n tell us tt the previous woman is her twin.

yeah right.

it's absolutely cool for twins to wear the same make-up, style the same hairstyle n don the same clothes. absolutely COOL. at bloody mid-forties.

[2] just come inside the counter, grab the free gift n RUN AWAY like a gleeful child who got away with some sweets.

[3] "what? like tt also cannot give meh? i dun believe. I WANT TO SEE YOUR MANAGER."
meh, meh ur head can. meh the grass away lar, cheapo lamb.

ah, i'm tired. continue another day darlings =)

what does he want? tell what does he want? jus plain out to spoil my day isn't it?

dennis messaged me this morning asking me how i was doing and that he has finally gotten himself a friendster account.

SO i went to see it (note: see, but didn't add) and he posted up pictures of him n winnie taken back in 2002 and the caption is : Me and MY GIRL. WTF. and his status is that he's attached. coincidentally (or not) winnie's status is also in a relationship. tell me there's NO LINK in these two things, puh-lease.

URRGH. What the HELL does he want?????? last week he called me to tell me he wanted to meet me cos he needed someone to talk to. n i ALMOST fell for it. and called me the next day to tell me he attempted suicide. attempted suicide. suffering from depression. i thot of u. WTF!

SO? why did u come n find me? WHY NOT WINNIE? cos she's bloody in UK right?

i feel like stranggling him. URRGH. GO AWAY! SHOO!

time reads 2.22am. and i'm bursting with joy. =)

jus came back from catching "bridget jones' diary" with jiayan and i give the movie a feel good factor of TEN! it's that good. haha. well, at least for me it is!

probably it could be that catching this movie was a real last min decision and i feel crazy tt i'm so crazy! haha! me n jiayan were on our way walking from ORCHARD to DHOBY GHAUT cos she wanna catch her NEL n i wanna catch my bus home, and we decided tt we could do with some air con at plaza sing. n we thot tt it might be a good idea to walk round the place to see what movies are screening. and tt it would be good to catch a movie. hence bridget jones at 11.20pm. muAHaHAhAha. gosh i really feel SO GOOD. i can't remember when was the last time i did sth SO CRAZY. n anyway been doing lotsa FEEL GOOD things the past two weeks. =) shall talk abt them later.

back to bridget jones.

i wanna date someone like MARK MARCY in bridget jones. catch the show n u'll know why. n i simply adore renee zellweger. she's such a good actor, not exactly pretty but ende aring. the show's so witty, funny n touches my heart so much tt i shed a few tears. oh well, i just love this show. =) i love it.

and thanks to jiayan =) i love you! ah, i jus feel so good. lately been getting closer to my girl pals more than i ever did in my whole life and i wanna say: girls, i'm so glad i have all of u in my life. esp to my girl guides frens. n j cube. u all rock my world =)

and yesterday i went shopping with my ex-colleague, yan. it was supposed to be a shopping trip to buy clothes for my cuz's wedding but i bought nth! hahaha. n we ended up at K-BOX singing our time away when all we wanted to do was to check out the price. and we played pool! both are MY FAVOURITE *grins* and both were last min decisions. i'm cool man. haha!

ah, i have lots of things running thru my mind now but i'm too tired to blog. shall continue another day. =)

n... i'm loving myself more than i ever did. and it feels good.

love u guys always.